We have been together for 4 years But I am still surprised to discover new versions of him each day.. Today he had shown how bad he could express his anger. I was honestly really scared, but at the same time I felt like I wanted to protect him. He was so strong, but so hurt at the same time. I had never felt the sudden urge to hold & to comfort. "I am sorry.. All is well. We are alright.." Yet today he had also shown me how deeply he could love. I admit I have this problem sometimes to blur out... Feeling like people would understand my complicated stories; feeling like my brain is running faster than my ability to restructure words. Rangga tho' very patiently tried to untangle my words, defining it into correct, understandable sentences. I called him rude out of my defense. Then he said, "I want to teach you how to communicate correctly, clearly.. Because I spend my days with you. And after that (after the wedding), I will be with you every
I sometimes laugh happily, another time I cry in my sleep.