C'est La Vie!

We have been together for 4 years But I am still surprised to discover new versions of him each day.. Today he had shown how bad he could express his anger. I was honestly really scared, but at the same time I felt like I wanted to protect him. He was so strong, but so hurt at the same time. I had never felt the sudden urge to hold & to comfort. "I am sorry.. All is well. We are alright.." Yet today he had also shown me how deeply he could love. I admit I have this problem sometimes to blur out... Feeling like people would understand my complicated stories; feeling like my brain is running faster than my ability to restructure words. Rangga tho' very patiently tried to untangle my words, defining it into correct, understandable sentences. I called him rude out of my defense. Then he said, "I want to teach you how to communicate correctly, clearly.. Because I spend my days with you. And after that (after the wedding), I will be with you every...

Feeling the urge to jot this down.. Dear fellow bride-to-be, What could be more worrisome than wedding planning is to actually see how you & your partner could collaborate as a team. Because it may not be as what you expected. There might be a lot of monologue; You may feel so alone. It may make you feel frustrated and dis-encouraged. But hang in there & keep wishing for miracle. :) Whatever it may turn out; It would be for the best. It would clarify things. Whether strengthen the bond or make you grow patience. Regards, Annisa Ayuningtyas

Hi there! It's been a while  :) Just want to pour my thoughts & feelings for a while. Rangga and I are having this Project FINALLY. Yes, we are preparing for our big day! After 4 years of laughter, happiness, tears & quarrels..  FINALLY!  Anyway, it is still in Jul 2017 But I am so excited! Decided not to get help from WO, we are planning it ourselves. Every weekend, starting next week, will be filled with surveying vendors, taking photos, buying stuffs. Sounds exciting, tho' I know it would be exhausting as well. When did he pop the question? As far as I can remember, we have been talking about getting married since we entered our 2nd year of relationship. Never in serious manners tho'. Alhamdulillah this year we finally  had family meet up (last Jul 2016).. We talked about it for real . So, I would honestly admit that there was no 'will you marry me' on bended knee (in fact, he never asked me t...